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Fall, 1999
Volume 3, Number 4

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My Dance for Gloria

by Rebecca Mitchell

1998 Short Story Contest Honorable Mention

A young counselor, trying to help a teenage rape victim from being abused further, is instead set free from her own tormented past.


I should’ve been home an hour ago. Should’ve taken a long hot shower and climbed into my cozy bed with it’s plaid sheets. Instead, I’m sitting in a bathtub rocking and holding a hysterical teenager.
        When I was just about to leave the girl’s dorm, had just finished my last progress note, that’s when she’d awoken screaming. It was the third time this week.
        In her struggle to run from the vivid nightmare, she’d gone to the bathroom mirrors. Looking for what I’m not sure. I suppose, for answers. Hell, I’d spent my whole life looking for them and never had the courage to look in the mirror.
        When I’d approached, she’d irrationally backed herself into the bathtub. It was a fit of sobbing, yelling, and desperate breathing. The kind of panic that contorts the face into shapes seemingly inhuman. The wild-eyed look of an animal or a drug addict, but she is neither.

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Prayer for a Harley rider

So here I am gawking at this brand new beefed-up
and all full of itself Harley-Davidson
I mean, it is massive
surely the Mack truck of motorcycles
and it’s parked right outside the gym
wedged between a Springdale police car and a beat-up
Bronco with NO FEAR emblazoned on its windshield
I walk the length of this behemoth
admiring its sheer bulk
its shiny newness
Then I spy the sticker
applied somewhere above the headlight
centered just so, the sticker sneers:
If it’s too loud
You’re too old
and I am stunned, tripped up in my anger I snort
Why you arrogant snot nosed punk!
I fume at the bike as if it had a choice
as to it’s master’s incivility
When this approach proves futile
I ratchet my rage down I try
to cultivate some compassion I try
to think of something helpful to tell this poor child
who is not old enough to know any better
I want to do this before I and others of my wizened ilk
are herded off by brutes like him
to grimy nursing homes
where our hypersensitivity won’t infringe
on their right to break the sound barrier
Son, I want to tell him
Son, maybe someday, God willing
you too will reach the advanced age of 43
with one foot in the grave and the other on a driveway oil slick
and your hearing aid will be cranked up too loud
so that the muscular roar of a Harley
disrupts your comfort
intrudes on your peace of mind
and so you’ll squawk about kids
these days having no respect for their elders and
other cliches as stale and feeble as you are
and you won’t remember
the thoughtless insolence of your youth--NO

Or maybe for you it will be different
maybe 30 years from now
you’ll still party hardy and snort coke at Limp Bizkit concerts
maybe you’ll still be showing off that withered barbed wire
tattoo on a bicep sagging under the weight of maintaining your image
maybe you’ll still have a full head of hair
several lovers
and a pierced scrotum for their entertainment

maybe you won’t have moved to a quiet home in the suburbs
where you enjoy tending a garden and
sitting on the porch with friends
sipping iced tea on long summer evenings
maybe you’ll be just tickled on those rare nights
when a motorcycle screams past your house at three AM and
opens up the throttle full bore
rattling teacups and setting the dogs to howling
maybe you won’t mind one bit
maybe it won’t be to loud maybe
you’ll never be
too old

by Lisa Martinovic

  

Snow Angel

by Leopold McGinnis

1998 Short Story Contest Honorable Mention

A young woman, reunited with her father after a long separation, discovers the reason for his departure.
    


 As I trudge my way through the unfazed sea of snow I realize how close to paradise I presently am. Also I realize how badly I want to get out of it and into a nice hot bath. There's a certain serenity in a fresh blanket of snow, when the wind's not blowing and all is calm. When you are warm inside your clumsy snow suit and all sounds muffled by your scarf wrapped close around your head. It is as if you no longer have a body, no feelings, no emotions and you are sucked out into the vacuum of an empty blue winter's sky. You are the environment, you belong here. That's why there are so many hazards in your way to stop you from escaping it. In this case, the deep snow. You fall about like a clunky fool who's learning to dance, trying to rush wherever you're headed. And the smooth blanket of snow, so organized and serenely draped across everything, sparkling, relaxed tries its best to keep you from getting there.

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Mind if I commit suicide?

Mind if I commit suicide?
Oh, no, not at all
In fact, why don't you take me with you?
Here, let's get together in this small windowless room
with a bunch of other folks committing suicide
Better yet, make it a car
and once everybody's packed in here like
cigarette butts in a speed freak's ashtray
you can all exhale languid smoke rings
into a pair of lungs that's just begging to be violated
Why, I get dizzy just thinking about it!
But you probably knew that
Being psychic and all
You know how much I love my skin and hair and clothes
to exude that heady blend of bar, whorehouse and
the toxic lining of your mouth
You know that I've spent half my life and twice my net worth purging
impurities from my body
just so I can afford the luxury of being in your presence while you're
committing suicide
You know that I don't mind enduring a few extra colds every year
or having my already compromised immune system further burdened
Hey—what are spleens for anyway?
I say, let's put 'em to work
And what's the big deal about a few years shaved off the end of my pitiful
life?
God knows, Carl Jung, Albert Einstein and Georgia O'Keefe weren't good for
much
during their Golden Years

I mean it
You are downright prescient about how little
I care for your life and mine
how I'd hate to see you actually deal with
whatever drives you to carry on in a cloud of poison
that threatens the health of those you love most
To hell with self knowledge and personal evolution!
You've got a thousand reincarnations to work through that karmic clutter
Right now, it's much more exotic to be politically incorrect
to play the role of rebel for the Nineties
flouting medical science, norms of civility and the drudgery of
common sense
Truly, I love your bravado
I love your devil-may-care attitude towards my health
the way you stand up for your god-given rights
How you don't even need to ask if we're in your house or your car
Knowing that if I'm so petty and self righteous as to be offended
well, I can jolly well pack up my holier-than-thou marbles and go home!

It's like a macabre parlor game
Every time you light up
I'm forced to choose between the pleasure of your company
and just saying no to black lung disease

But you've got more important things to worry about
than my trivial internal anguish
you being such an astute Constitutional scholar
All these years I've been reading that seminal document
and I must have just skimmed over the part that guarantees your right to
life, liberty, the pursuit of happiness, or failing that
slow suicide and the incidental infliction of harm on anyone
within breathing distance of you
This really clears up a lot of things for me

So, yeah, go right ahead
Here, allow me
Feel better now?
Good
Do I mind if you commit suicide?
Why should I?
You're only the one clerk at the post office who always smiles
the neighbor who looks after my dog while I'm gone
the shade tree mechanic who tells me the truth
You're only my best friend, my baby brother
the college professor who taught me how to write
You are the woman who gave birth to me
the man I want to marry
You are the anonymous thousands who showed me how to live sober
You are all the poets who make me laugh and weep
and dance to languages I didn't know I knew

You are everyone I've ever loved
who's ever asked
Do you mind if I smoke?

Why in the world would I mind?

by Lisa Martinovic
     
     

A Mourning Dove Dawn

by  Larry Gwartney

1998 Short Story Contest Honorable Mention

A man must contend with the death of his wife of fifty years and realizes what he has taken for granted. 


       "What the hell?"

        Archer Simondson awoke with a start. Turning his one good ear to the sounds drifting through the cracks in the yellowed panes of the bedroom window, he lay still and listened. Low, almost purring, clucks and squawks filtered in from the chicken coop. Heavy thumps echoed from the barn as Porgy and Bess, the white-stockinged draft horses, clomped around on their wood-floored stalls.When the wind turned just right, even the grunts and squeals of the sty at the far end of the farm yard floated in. As punctuation, Rick, the ancient bantam rooster Archer’s wife had named after one of her favorite movie characters, pierced the pre-dawn air with a warm up cockadoo. Though he listened hard, Archer could hear nothing out of the ordinary. Still, the strange coldness that had awakened him continued to roll around in his stomach.

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Is Nothing Sacred?

Used to be you had to renounce all worldly possessions
hop a steamer to India
locate a swami at the top of a mountain
and sit humbly at his feet for a decade or two
before you’d even see the first mile marker
on the road to enlightenment

Now there are convenient enlightenment plans
available for people of all ages, spiritual persuasions and income brackets
You can order a ready made guru
Meher Baba, Sai Baba, Baba Ram Dass or . . . L. Ron Hubbard ?
or choose from a wide variety of do it yourself options
Aruveda, Avatar, Course in Miracles—even holotropic breathwork
that’s right, use your Visa card to breathe, dance or, with Tantric yoga,
blissfully copulate your way to higher consciousness

Why bother with years of prayer and meditation, fasting and selflessness
when for the cost of a book, tape, or at most a weekend seminar
you too can achieve spiritual mastery
and now, more than ever, at low, low discount prices

Why, you don’t even have to seek enlightenment anymore
Like it or not, enlightenment is coming to you channeled
through the US Mail
Every week comes a new glossy package promising
peace, prosperity, bliss and a soul mate
in just thirty days or your money back

Since when do gurus need mass marketing, anyway?
Used to be their miracles spoke for themselves
effortlessly reaching masses of disaffected seekers without need of
a bulk mailing permit

In the old days, people went to doctors when they got sick
But it’s the 90’s—your doctor is a health maintenance organization
and they aren’t very successful with new age diseases—like mine
Oh, I won’t bore you the details of my personal tragedy
let’s just say I’ve had this intractable illness since before souls needed chicken soup
Even my MD ran out of prescriptions that didn’t work anyway
my acupuncturist lost faith in her needles
and my dowser’s pendulum stopped swingingWhat else could I do?
I went ahead and booked a trip to the Amazon where I’ll
find a native shaman who will
blow magic herbs up my nose
make me hallucinate prophetic pre-Columbian visions explaining the truth
about what is surely a psycho-spiritual malady
because studies show that viruses don’t kill people
people kill themselves with negative thought patterns

So now I’m preparing for this vision quest and I’m
researching arcane ethnobotanical literature in dusty libraries
and incense heavy metaphysical bookstores
and I think I am so special and so evolved and so New Age I’m Stone Age
till one day I’m click click clicking through cyberspace where I virtually

trip
over an Ayahuasca –vine of the Incan gods -homepage for chrissake
Shamanic healing is all over the net
I’m practically the last to know

But hey, lookie here
for only $1500 I can have a genuine shamanic experience
in the Peruvian rainforest
with the wild mushroom traveling road show!

and it’s just not the same, is it?

when spiritual paths are hawked
like Caribbean cruises on the home shopping network
and slick guru promos overflow our mailboxes
when the Amazon reveals her deepest entheogenic mysteries on-line

there’s nothing left to do
and nowhere left to go but
Hoooooooooohhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmme


by Lisa Martinovic

 

A House on the Marsh

by Mary Hazzard

1998 Short Story Contest Honorable Mention

A woman becomes fascinated with the divoriced couple from which she and her husband rent a house and discovers how her borderline obsession is affecting her own marriage.


        "Moveless,"Polly Chancellor says. The trees beyond the porch where she sits, on this late Cape Cod afternoon in September, are as still as trees in a photograph. "William put that word into one poem three times, and Dorothy made him take it out. Too bad."

        "Only twice," her husband says, not looking up from the proofs in his lap.
        "No, three times."
        "He left one of them in. And Dorothy was right."
        Austin must be right too, but Polly hopes he won't pursue it, since she can't now recall which of Wordsworth's poems she was talking about. She leans back in the blue canvas chair and focuses on the trees, locust and pine. Balancing her glass on the palm of her hand, she feels suspended between the silver-gray siding of the house and the empty green marsh beyond. There are no motor bikes today, only the burr of chickadees and the rush of traffic on Route 6 across the bay.

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